Sometimes

Sometimes you just feel well in this world, don't you? Sometimes, you realise your life is quite crappy, maybe, you realize (i keep the s,z diversity, by the way) the life of others is crappy, you realise life in general is crappy and yet, there's this feeling of wellness. Must be some mechanism of the brain, but i prefer to think of the randomness of this world, my only God, giving away bits of wellness which eventually enter through your mouth with the air. Today, if you think about it, my day was quite crappy, indeed. I felt totally sleepy at work, unable to do anything but behaving like a robot-worker. I had the company's health check, and the doctor said I'm ok but maybe i should check my jaw. He thinks I'd be more handsome with my jaw operated. Nice. Health checks always come with a surprise, it turns out (it was my first one). The doctor also said I'm quite deaf, which was no surprise at all (I have this trauma: as a child, I would tell my mother I'm deaf, but she wouldn't listen to me... maybe she's deaf too). Anyway, I got as I could to the end of my working time, but I got a last minute call that made me miss the train. So I got home 20 minutes later. Then had some fish and vegetables for dinner, and I quickly finished every conversation with my mom, to get to check email and still go to bed early. My mom started a new complain: I don't socialise with her (new, interesting concept) since I have this wireless internet connection in my room. True. I spoke to the mexican. He laughed. Now it's so late. I won't sleep. The air of my room is filled with smoke. And yet, here you have it. Wellness. Happyness, indeed.